Innocent Night

It's the innocent night
that peers on me now
but it cannot read these
deliriously
delicious thoughts
making these
innocent limbs
cry out
in feverish whims

Wild, Orchid Heart

Buried in the backyard
of someone else's dream
nickel smell of a newly
turned soil
oh, the choking roil

spring
summer
fall
leaves collecting all
ivy planting
roots chanting
& a lusty cloud
devouring the
silver glow
of a rapturous moon show

tickling
prickling
a new bud did grow

ashes
to
ashes

lightning flashes

dust
to
dust

angry sky mimicking disgust

old heart buried
now becoming one
with earth

& in the seductive glow
of a ruddy sunset
a wild heart did rise
throwing head back
thunder now in my eyes
wild orchid
sighs

Safe Haven

Screaming ambulance of
violent upheaval outside

Inside, my ankles are wrapped around
his thrusting hip gift
ecstasy
& all its
passionate uplift

I said; He said

I said I wanted to burn it all
so he brought a fresh match

I said I wanted to bury it all
so he brought a shiny shovel
for all the dirty soil to catch

I said I was going to hide
I yelled as I began to run

He said
"You better run faster, hun"

Love promising
to catch us both

Saying Hello to the Girl Before

Before the pain
Before the hard strain
I was a free spirit
No cage could cage me
A wild, lustrous mix of
introvert vs
extrovert
Just a free girl

There were no chains
No echoing
droning
symphonic
strains

Before the depression
Before the self repression
I flew above the thunder clouds
Naked
Without the funereal shrouds

Love did not have one definition
It was visceral
No simple replication
And honey
I loved
without
suffocation

And here I sit
Hand in hand
With that girl so grand
A better balance of the two
dancing in the sand

19 Pristine

Sneaking in the local bar
Jaeger Meister and
taking everything
a bit
too far

Figure 8 gait
Slow cadence to the
lonely, handsome gent

That girl was so free
So long ago
I sometimes wonder
if that was even me

3 hours sleep
Wake up
Work
Rock concert
Screaming weep
Getting high
on a dusty road
at midnight
watching all the
banshees take flight

I teased
but never gave myself away
French kissing
Pushing
Waking up with myself the next day
Fresh, new lip gloss
I'd go about my way
Laughing hysterically
Do it all again
another day

19 pristine
I was a little
bitchy queen
No care in the world
I'm now
shaking hands
with that girl

Show Me Love

It's fucking hard
I have to paint myself as some
dark, gothic, don't-give-a-fuck chic
around my family
Change it up real quick
and smile sweet
when I meet
a stranger
on the street
Change it up
Mask
For
Task
Hand me a full flask

I'm sick of waiting
Show me love
Wrap me real soft
in your satin glove
You know?
That endless hug
Make it so fucking sweet
I give up this mask
of feeling
like a thug.