Saying Hello to the Girl Before

Before the pain
Before the hard strain
I was a free spirit
No cage could cage me
A wild, lustrous mix of
introvert vs
extrovert
Just a free girl

There were no chains
No echoing
droning
symphonic
strains

Before the depression
Before the self repression
I flew above the thunder clouds
Naked
Without the funereal shrouds

Love did not have one definition
It was visceral
No simple replication
And honey
I loved
without
suffocation

And here I sit
Hand in hand
With that girl so grand
A better balance of the two
dancing in the sand

19 Pristine

Sneaking in the local bar
Jaeger Meister and
taking everything
a bit
too far

Figure 8 gait
Slow cadence to the
lonely, handsome gent

That girl was so free
So long ago
I sometimes wonder
if that was even me

3 hours sleep
Wake up
Work
Rock concert
Screaming weep
Getting high
on a dusty road
at midnight
watching all the
banshees take flight

I teased
but never gave myself away
French kissing
Pushing
Waking up with myself the next day
Fresh, new lip gloss
I'd go about my way
Laughing hysterically
Do it all again
another day

19 pristine
I was a little
bitchy queen
No care in the world
I'm now
shaking hands
with that girl

Show Me Love

It's fucking hard
I have to paint myself as some
dark, gothic, don't-give-a-fuck chic
around my family
Change it up real quick
and smile sweet
when I meet
a stranger
on the street
Change it up
Mask
For
Task
Hand me a full flask

I'm sick of waiting
Show me love
Wrap me real soft
in your satin glove
You know?
That endless hug
Make it so fucking sweet
I give up this mask
of feeling
like a thug.

She Beast

She was a prowler
A midnight howler
  before I stamped her down
Fangs showing
Blood dripping and glowing
Yes
I remember her
As I tame her to a restless purr

Unsheathed ten
Claws digging in
To your tender skin
Legs twining and wrapping
Heart thunder rapping
Needing more
Fill me to my core

Demure and pure
Sitting in the shadows
She beast
Walking to the gallows
Because I've undressed you
a thousand times
Put you in a number of different positions
Our skin melding in a symphony of rhymes

She beast
Patiently waiting
Teeth starting to show
Bring your feast

Satin Sheets & Red Wine

Our love story is
written
between satin sheets
with spilled red wine
as you trace my every line

Technical Difficulty

I'm not always
so easy to read
Simplistic in my
overstated complications
How far into the shadows
will you run?
How fast can you duck
as I click
my six-shooting
mouthy gun?
Overthinking & shy
Sexy & fun
Pleasure & pain
Thunder & gentle rain
Taking
Taking
Giving it back again
Insatiable beyond belief
Deep kisses to steal my breath
kind of relief

Dark Paradise

His is the darkness I crave
Teeth grazing my tender skin
Biting
Tugging
Undulating sin
Waking me from a deep sleep
Pulling me deeper in